Dealing with Madness and Insanity on the Spiritual Path
In the rather small circles of fellow Lightworkers I’ve been closely associated with, we often, over the years, discussed the bent of those who pursue Ascension Process toward mental instability. Additionally, my Guidance has supplied a good deal of information on this subject over the years. What follows are just a few excerpts:
These people very frequently fall prey to what the world at large defines as mental imbalance or disturbance. It seems that the extreme sensitivity required to espouse the Path of Ascension and become a Lightworker makes this predilection almost universal among them in one fashion or another. To pursue this Path at all requires that one take a stance that is “irrational” in regard to most prevalent paradigms, and Lightworkers are, to a man/woman, Mad as the Proverbial Hatter in “Alice in Wonderland”. The only trick to succeeding in this Quest toward the Light, is an ability which has also been bred into these incarnational vehicles (human forms). It is simply to discover their balance, to walk the Razor’s Edge of Madness without succumbing totally to the strong lure of absolute immersion in this “aberration”.
Indeed, this is what the Sorcerer’s Tradition that produced don Juan (From Books by Carlos Castaneda author of The Teachings of Don Juan: A Yaqui Way of Knowledge), and which you (the author) have been steeped in, is all about. This is true of most other of the principal Mystic Paths that have been birthed in this world as well. Their purpose is to offer Freedom, but not only for these practitioners. For, if that were the case, then entering completely into the Worlds whose Doorways are opened by their “delusions” would be the shortest Path. The Intent, however, is and has been to provide and presenrve those Patterns which will enable Humankind to evolve beyond the Rational Paradigm it has been lodged in for most of the last thousand years―to Transcend and Ascend.
As you well know at this point, not nearly all of those prepared as incarnations for the Lightworkers Lifestreams are “keepers”. The ability to Balance, to maintain stability in the midst of chaos, and paradoxically, to surrender to that very chaos when conditions merit it, remains a fairly rare trait. While we “lose” some of those who have been groomed to assume these Lifestreams to that which would be termed insanity in this world―far more are lost to the other side of the coin, to the cultivated reasonableness and rationality they are able to muster in the face of [what they see as] overwhelming Truths to the contrary. They are conquered by Fear. Being different, exhibiting traits which are a great departure from the norm, is still one of the the most terrorizing threats to the human form.
The First Step: Admitting It
So, we win some and we loose some, from a certain perspective. Some of the Lost Ones on the Path to Ascension go on to become statistics pointing to a social and cultural milieu on the verge of collapse, while others become part of that “secret” cancer which is eating away at its foundations. By repressing their insanity, by concealing their madness, they do more toward bringing the teetering structure of Rationality to ruin than could otherwise be accomplished. Everything in Creation has its purpose. Nothing is wasted in this Universe. We are Energy Conservationists and Recyclers to the Core.
What sets those who can handle this Transformation of a Race and a Planet apart, is the simple fact that somewhere along the line, each has acknowledged and accepted their own madness. Every being who successfully navigates the Path toward Ascension has assimilated it rather than trying to bury it, and moved on as if it were a Natural thing, which, in fact, it is. What isn’t natural, is constantly trying to adhere to a code of reasonableness and rationality when you aren’t either. Madness is nothing more than the terrain in which the Great Goddess’ chaos serves to purify the essential Self. It is an Initiation of Water, for its deep currents drown all that is not part of the True I Am.
Mystics and schizophrenics find themselves in the same ocean, but the mystics swim whereas the schizophrenics drown.R.D. Laing
The Politics of Experience and The Bird of Paradise
The reason I’m supplying these notes just now is that there are many that I know or come across in various media, even among those seemingly deeply spiritual and accepting people, who are still on the fence, so to speak. They have either not come to terms with the extent of their “differentness” or are still trying to hide the fact that it exists from themSelves. We have to learn to take these peculiarities, these wild talents we possess, and use them to propel our own growth as well as to support and encourage others.
I am closely acquainted with people who have learned to utilize their manic-depressive seesaw to accomplish the Alchemic Magic out of which transformation can occur; others who have turned Paranoia into a Creative Impulse; and in my own expereince I have transcended deeply rooted phobias and depressive inclinations, only to use them as launching pads into the Unknown. We truly need to cut loose, to become the Crazy-Wise Warriors that we are meant to be. Is is, very simply, the Warrior’s Path embodied, or Ascension, if you prefer.
There are so many people I have known over the years, many of them on the very same Path I have trod for so many years, who have ventured forth from their Darkness only to retreat back into it when things got a bit more intense than they cared to handle, or let their neurosis and paranoia manifest as limitation and frustration rather than using it as a launching pad into Awareness. So many of those currently incarnate in this fast-changing and chaotic world are only limited by their own inability to surrender to what they Are rather than trying to shape themselves into the graven images which lie on the other side of Madness