METATRON: Instrument of Transformation

Messages From The Elohim and The Wizard

Transformation

I am asked to convey this message received from the Elohim Metatron on January 16th. Until a few days ago, I had had little or no contact from this messenger from the Central Sun for a number of years. In view of the rapidity with which the Ascension Process is currently unfolding on Gaia/Earth, this One feels that as many as possible should be made aware of the necessity for Haste in these Last Days. Change comes, and this is not the No Time to fall behind. I am publishing this in it’s entirety other than some slight editing of personal material.

Metatron: I greet you with effulgence and barely contained glee on this most memorable of days, It is as though I awaken from a long sleep in the Dimensions you inhabit, and I Am more than ready to live up to the appellation bestowed upon me by my beloved Merlin. Now, indeed, are we ready to send a storm of change hurtling about your physical Earth.

Awaken, Awaken

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 2020—The Death of Self

The Birth of I AM

Existential Self—This is ‘the most basic part of the self-scheme or self-concept; the sense of being separate (emphasis on separate is mine, not author’s …GS ) and distinct from others and the awareness of the constancy of the self.

 Helen Bee, 1992
The Death of Self
Image from Pixabay

Oh No! Not the Big D Again

If you have been in Ascension Process for a while, or involved in some of any number of Spiritual Communities and groups, you are aware that Death of various parts of what we consider Self is inevitable. Ego is the big bad. Must eliminate that pesky thing, but what else, you may ask, has to go? Only things like Individuality, Autonomy, Personality, Rationality, and the biggest sticking point of alll—The Self.

After all, we are just emerging from the Decade of the Self.; Self-Esteem, Self-Control, Self-Involvement, Self-Help, Self-Growth, Self-Love, Self-Indulgence to name a few, and my all time favorite, Self-Care. While a part of me understands the necessity of this period of development, another part has cringed. All of this pandering to the God of Self has brought a great deal that needed attended to right to the surface of being, and it has pointed out glaringly just how divided and disconnected from Source those incarnated on Earth are. And how preoccupied with the Self they truly are, how distanced from the so-called Soul Missions so many of them profess to be on Earth to Fulfill. This year, heralded by many as the one in which the New Earth is thrown open to welcome her Ascended Children Home, will only be that if we can give up the False Idol of the Self.

The word from Source, the Ascended Masters, the Angels and the guides is that 2020 is the year that we all come together as One, as a Collective, as the Monadic Soul. Sounds good, doesn’t it? Very Spiritual and Profound. The ideal is just that, but the doing of same is somewhat more complicated.

I’m not certain how I am going to come off here, but instead of filling many paragraphs with flowery wordy vagaries about downloads, uploads, DNA light codes, Crystal body upgrades, etc., etc., I’m going to just speak frankly (I hope!). What we’re going to shoot for here is Ascension for Dummies. That other stuff is lovely, and often as not, the channeled words are as important for the Energies that accompany them as for the Words themselves. This is important though, from the point of view of how we get from point A to B and then C in this pursuit of joining together on Earth.

The Many as One

This is a Pipe-Dream, is it not? The notion of pulling together the billions of disparate and fractured Lifestreams on this planet, of getting them to strive together for the Good of All, is staggering. I’m not speaking to Everyone out there. There are Lightworkers among you who have laid aside the egos, the personality constructs, and so forth, and are joined in a golden network of Light and Energy that upholds this planet from sinking back into the Darkness. Instead, I would speak to the Billions on Earth, most of whom are just now even waking up to the possibility that they are More, that Gaia was/is/will be More, that a Path has been Blazed through the Shadows, and Light waits on the other side. While I could sugarcoat it with stock labels like attaining the Collective or Universal Consciousness, that doesn’t begin to describe the process that must be got through, or explain the sacrifices that need to be made.

Where to begin? As many are aware, we are in the midst of a Cycle meant to reunite the Twin Flames, to Heal the Duality and Polarity, part of the schism suffered as a consequence of plunging into the energies of a Descending Earth all those Aeons ago as Time is counted. It might be said that this is Going, but not that it is Going well. For most of these Couples (many are not couples from an immediate perspective, and some are not even acquainted with one another) the Process, much like Ascension Itself, proceeds to a certain point, and then comes to a dead halt. Many among the 144,000 managed the Left/Right Polarity reconciliation, effectively creating Two Beings (Still!) with neither a decidedly Masculine or Feminine orientation. While this is a very important and significant accomplishment, it is only a beginning, Phase One so to speak. What slows them down at this point, or very often stops them completely? Very simply, giving up what has been seen as Self. Once the joining of the lower subtle levels begins—Mental, Emotional and Etheric—we begin to encounter problems. Few, it seems, want to share their deepest secret thoughts and feelings with another. Most of those on Earth live behind a carefully constructed facade, filtering everything that arises in them even from those they hold dearest, perhaps even more so in many cases. It is one thing to expose your naked body to the beloved, but quite another to reveal the naked soul. On the Path to Ascension, we needs must give up the idea of secrecy and evasion, be willing to share all that we are, no matter what light we fear it will be perceived in.

Absolute Trust! Complete sharing of all that One is. Terrifying—at least that seems to be the consensus. And the next stage, the one that only a very few have managed to reach and complete, is the joining on the Physical level. This is not Spiritual Sex people. In fact, sexuality is no more than one of a myriad tangled webs encountered on this level. To experience what another person Feels through the body, everything from myopia to exhaustion to disorders, some as mild as a headache, others as serious as Cancer, is deeply disturbing at first. What would you Share with this, your most significant, of Others? You perhaps See the quandary. What sacrifice of your own health, comfort and well-being would you surrender in order to merge with another, to Create One out of Two?

Service and Sacrifice

I Am that I AM

It is possible to have attained the first major milestone on their Path to Ascension as an individual/personal undertaking. It takes enormous effort for most, and is a profound accomplishment. However, once that giant step is taken, the Fun really begins. Now we will see how you function as part of a group endeavor, as members of a cooperative unit. During the 1990s, when many of the Patterns for the Ascension Wave we see unfolding now were being created, the inability to work together as a cohesive whole, without Self-Interest interfering was, in more instances than one, the stumbling block encountered by the early Pentam (Forerunners) members. Since in essence, all of us who are here to assist in this enterprise, are Soul Groups whose ultimate Healing requires the release of the individuated, partitioned consciousness, this is of utmost importance.

The great reluctance that ones in both physical and pseudo-physical incarnation have in regard to surrendering their Autonomy, of putting the Group, or even those incarnating other aspects of the same Lifestream, before their own Individual purposes, remains a profound problem. Even among those who know Better, Selfishness and Personality still run rampant. How often do we encounter, when hearing from or about those on the path, is the need to isolate, to withdraw from the world, on one hand, or feeling ostracized and isolated by same? So often, instead of growing closer, people in Ascension process seem to use it for the opposite of dropping the barriers and sharing themselves. Words like abuse, narcissism and trauma are bandied about like badges of accomplishment. Never mind that what we accuse others of, is actually, more often than not, our own secret vice and guilt. Negative labels do not serve ourselves or our Community, or indeed, our Greater Self. Accusations, victim mentality and blame are counter to healing or growth.

The individuality and preoccupation, the self-interest I am speaking of, is the same sticking point that we repeatedly run into with the Twin Flame re-union. This then, is the crux of the work which must be done during the course of the year to come. Reconciliation of these twin flames where possible, and Connection of these Soul Groups at subtle levels that will make it possible to Transcend Personality and work together for the Whole.

It is possible for everyone in an undertaking to be Impeccable within their own sphere, each according to their own predilections, and still not achieve the Objective. And the fact that most who would declare themselves Lightworkers on the Path of Ascension remain a disparate group of Individuals rather than the integrated and unified Group that was meant to be, makes it unlikely that the objective of a Fifth Dimensional World can be achieved unless a New Paradigm is put into place. Individuality is what will keep this world on the Brink of Ascension, but unable to plunge. It is not only Ego. If it were, we could have been already done with this. It is a myriad little things that keep ones on Earth apart, from personality to emotion, from overblown rationality to the complete lack of same.

Most ones incarnated on Earth are parts of what you would see as Soul Groups, not just a Twin Flame couple, but dozens or even hundreds of other beings. It is a Catch 22, of course. In order to fully Ascend, to escape the bonds and boundaries of physical being and Assemble the New Earth, the Fifth Dimensional World in its Totality, you must have released the Self to the arms of the waiting Earth. Just as you discarded the Ego and so much else that was once part of who you thought you were along the way, you must Sacrifice Self as part of this amazing undertaking. And it is amazing, for in trade you become So Much More than you ever can be alone.

In order to complete the next phase of Ascension process, ones must be willing to not just entertain the notion or ideal of Unity, but to Live it. Self-Sacrifice and Service must become second nature. We are Better Together!

Death of Self

   Rise in 2020

Greeting A New Year—

A New Decade

Rise in 2020

Twenty-Twenty! Rolls off of the tongue more easily than twenty-eighteen or twenty-nineteen, but what is significant about it really? Since I can only speak from my own experience and observation, I do not know how You are perceiving the linear chronology we refer to as Time these days. All I can say is that the most recent cycle of It, from my perspective, began crumbling in early October. Master Merlin would say that we are “Rolling up the Rugs we walked in on.”

At this juncture, I am learning to navigate in a New fashion, using the Earth’s innate cycles as signposts for this unfoldment which is life. Day and night, light and dark, the moon’s phases and the rolling out of this season of sleep and death—winter—are becoming my landmarks. True, there are clocks everywhere; on my phone and computer, the wall and the bedside table. But Time does strange things. Sometimes it stretches and curves, and at others disappears in my rear-view mirror as if it never were. I can’t depend on it any longer, and that’s Okay. I strove for a long Time to discover the Eternal Now. Perhaps I have even found it once or twice along the way. I am still very much in the process of recovering those lost memories I spoke of in a recent(?) post.

Of course, though I feel myself to have largely left behind the phenomenal world, we are a culture that lives by the calendar as well. Since this is the case, I have to remain mindful of the outer world’s schedule even while I live within a different and not very complimentary framework. And the part of me that takes note wonders how another decade can be ending and a new one beginning. By the reckoning of these calendars, I began this journey, this Spiritual/Transcendent Path in 1987. So, I have to believe that in the Objective Sphere thirty-three years have elapsed, while subjectively I can’t even say if any of those years were yesterday or fragments of a Dream. This state speaks to the success of my clearing/recapitulation. There is little left to cling to any longer, and I am in the process of ruthlessly rooting out all that is left and requalifying it to return to the Goddess.

It is New Year’s Eve as I type this post. I picked up one of my awesome Granddaughters a little while ago to spend the day with us. She asked me if I was making a New Year’s Resolution, and I allowed as to how I don’t usually, other than as an Intention to live the next year Better—as a better version of myself, as a kinder, more aware and conscious being. Nothing much really. However, I think I just may be shooting a little higher this year, making a Resolution that I am asking all other Lightworkers and our Mother Planet, Gaia, to join in. I want for all of us in 2020 to Rise.

Rise

This, apparently and I think aptly, will be my Word for 2020. Since I began to Wake (back) Up a few months ago, I resumed an old custom of attuning to Spirit/Source that I call My Notes From God and Goddess. My first experience with channeling many years ago was through automatic writing, and it has always been my favorite means of attunement to these energies.

Yesterday morning, when I did my Notes, they shared the following with me—

Rise!

It is a fine word, a wonderful simile for the Ascension Process which is the Reason for all of our Seasons.

Rise, like the Sun/Son is doing even Now.

Rise to meet Yourselves on the Road to Damascus and in the Halls of the King.

Rise to the Occasion.

Rise to Show the Light of Your Love to All-That-Is.

December 30, 2019

My Heart did and does thrill to these words. How apt for New Year/New Decade. Each and every Being in this World is being called upon to Ascend, whether they have admitted it Consciously yet or not. And what is Ascension but To Rise— to rise above limitation, separation and fear—to become the Awareness of God in Creation.

2020

As the year turns, I promise to at least attempt to take up where I left off on developing this website earlier in the year (2019). I can’t promise any particular regularity, because I can’t Foresee the calls and needs of Spirit in this Probable Future, but I will expand it, just as I am expanding just Now. And I will continue the Story thread I began at Spirit’s behest.

Additionally, I have already begun and will soon publish a Glossary of the Words and Terms I use in attempting to describe the ineffable journey to Ascension. I realize that some of the words I use are not readily familiar to everyone. I hope you will join me on the Path.

RISE!

Rise in 2020

Winter Ascension Gate 2019

Blessed Solstice to All

Winter Gate

Today, December 21st, 2019, is a Magical and long awaited day. It is the Janua Coeli, the Winter Ascension Gate in the Northern Hemisphere and the Summer Gate of Descent in the South. Both are Mystic Initiations if taken. Neither Gate has been utilized by those in human incarnation since 1999.

This year is a Blessing indeed, for more than 400,000 Lightworkers will have passed through these Gates by the end of December 22nd.

I know that I have been absent from this blog for some Time, but much has occurred in the last quarter of this year, and I simply have not had the Time to attend to it. I hope to rectify this 2020.

Go In Peace…

Winter Gate

 It’s All Coming Back To Me

Now!

It's All Coming Back to Me-- Now!

Part of me feels as though I should be apologizing for my long-ish absence from this Blog, but without making any excuses or apologies, I can honestly say that Life has swept over me like a Tidal Wave these past couple of months. A Tsunami of Realization, of Awareness and Memory, of something resembling a Continuity that I wasn’t aware of having lost for nearly two decades. Is That all?

You’ve got to admit, sounds like some Heavy Stuff, and indeed it has been. I have been in a daze of mystified amazement during which I repeatedly muttered or exclaimed “I’ve had Amnesia” like some exaggerating soap opera actor. Mostly to myself, mind you, and those few who have at least an inkling of what I’m talking about. I’m not exaggerating, though, and the depth and breadth of the Memory that had eluded me for all these years, is staggering.

And as it unfolds, it wasn’t only myself who underwent this Memory Wipe, but an entire group of people at various stages of Ascension Process and Awakening. It appears that it occurred to one extent or the other in the several score individuals that I/We worked with from 1988 to 1999― what I called the Pentam Pattern. I say We because three of our household of four are now aware of this occurring. The fourth, my daughter was relatively young at that juncture, so it is hard to really say, though she does seem to have regained memories, as have we all, the past few weeks.

Puzzle Pieces

If you’re wondering how this can be, I’m certain you’re not alone. While I had forgotten a great deal, I was sent into the New Millennium with a Mission to complete, a task that required me to maintain a thread of at least vague continuity, and connection to my Higher Self guidance. I was like a sleep walker I See now. I completed these tasks, served as an Empathic healer for twenty years, and kept my link to Spirit, with almost no clue of what I was missing. The years preceding this Break in our Reality, were spread over with a framework of remembering that mostly worked well as long as one didn’t look too close.

My son and I would joke about the fact that I seemed to have a rather large blank space during his early childhood. I thought he was being a dramatic kid at ten or eleven when he had to write a paper on his younger years, and he made me pull out the box of school memorabilia I’d saved because he couldn’t remember. For myself, I didn’t dwell, because the memories I did have were not very happy, and I was aware still of having done much clearing in pursuit of my Spiritual Path.

Did I wonder why my spiritual progress was so slow and never as much as I thought it should be? Vaguely, but it’s hard to miss what you don’t recall. A few months ago, I had the urge to bring out a box of old channeled material and notes I had hauled through numerous life changes and relocations. Never having much spare time, I didn’t get around to looking at much of it for awhile. However, as my connection to my Guidance, to Source, became stronger, particularly following the summer Solstice, I began to read through some of it. Most of it was from the late 80s and early 90s. So, though I was puzzled somewhat by the seeming depth of my understanding of many esoteric subjects, and the complexity of some of these concepts, I only thought how long ago it was and no wonder things had slipped my mind.

As I dug deeper though, it nagged at me more and more. I was, I knew, in the most Spiritually Awakened point of any past I still remembered. And something started to seem Missing― was wrong from any direction I looked at it. It all seemed to come to a head when I gave my Son, who was by this time going through an Awakening process of his own, a paper I had done on the Qaballah and another on the Sons of Belial many years ago. He returned them to me, scratching his head and asking if I was sure I’d written them.

Had I? It occurred to me that I didn’t remember writing them, and the concepts exceeded anything I could readily grasp at present. However, I was certain that the Qaballah paper was mine. The other… Maybe Larry, the children’s father and the man I had spent much of the last 30 years with. He was a Channel of the Ascended Masters when I met him. But no, this wasn’t his. He did however, have copies of work and research done by both of us through the 1990s, on Energy Patterns, Esoterica and the Ascended Master Heirarchy. Like me, he hadn’t thought about this material for years, and couldn’t remember the last time he’d read any of it.

Where Did It Go?

As one computer was replaced over the years by another, and the world moved from floppy disc, to cds, memory sticks and and tiny cards. I had moved often also, and I lost a good deal of the earlier work I’d done along the way. Larry is more technically minded of us anyway, so he had copied from one format to another along the way. He made me a copy of all these many files, and I began to read. Initially, I was wondering when we had stopped doing these fascinating things, and why? Then shock set in, as I read the Warrior’s Journal, My Notes From God and the Goddess, that I had kept almost daily from 1996 through the early months of the year 2000.

This happened shortly before the fall Equinox. My Son, who by this time admitted to having his first Teacher and guide in energy realms, and I had a job to do. My connection to Source was becoming stronger with each and every day, and suddenly it all came together. It was like a physical blow at first. The sudden realization that a decade or more of my life had just disappeared, and that my Awareness had been virtually asleep for most of the past twenty years was traumatic.

Who Are We?

Memory returns, or more accurately, Awareness. The day to day memories are neither important or significant, but the Drama of what we achieved as a group working in Heightened Awareness in Higher Dimensional Energy Realms during that dozen years―the arduous completion of training and initiation As Shamans and Seers―are.

We were called the Forerunners. Our group entered into physical incarnation between the 1940s and the 1980s. Our job was to prepare the Earth, her Grid and the Worlds associated with same for Ascension. We are lightworkers, pattern makers, healers and teachers, and Warriors of the unknown. Someone had to go first. We were and are the Pentam Pattern. Our purpose was to establish a pattern for the formation of a Fifth Dimensional World, then to heal the rift between the two extant Universes ones on Earth have experienced, the Binary, that of Duality and Polarity and the Fall into the Third (and briefly 2nd) Dimension―and the more stable but still far from perfect Trinary Universe, that of the Divine Masculine and Feminine, and their Binder, the Dreamer (Father, Mother and the Holy Ghost).

During those years, Lightworkers began to Awaken around the globe, but we were spread so very thin that the workload was more than some could shoulder. While there was light and joy, there was more of sadness, pain and seemingly endless suffering. Ascension process is still difficult (though growing ever easier as more join the Awakened), but it was tantamount to impossible in those days, and yet the impossible was what we were sent to accomplish. By 1999, we had went through five cycles, trying different configurations and ideas each time, but still fell short of the ideal, of the perfection of unfoldment that was desired. And we were exhausted. As I have said, some had already left the Path, unable to muster that internal resilience it required in spades. They were magnificent, and their service will not go unrewarded.

Those that remained in 1999 most likely would have willingly embarked on another cycle, but it was too much to ask. The Ascended Master whose charges we were and those of us who were responsible for the Pattern, decided that a rest was in order. We dispersed, and we forgot (some slower than others, but it happened to us all).

Timing

Why now! Because we slept through the time that two other generations were coming into their own. The great Awakening that started slowly in 2012 is gaining momentum. I can close my eyes and see the lights of new souls around the world joining in this miracle of enlightenment and uplifting. We, the Pentam Pattern are awakening, and finishing the preparation of that Fifth Dimensional World to greet these brave pioneers. I think perhaps my Granddaughter summed it up in a conversation recently. She said that this wake-up was happening Now because I had to wait for she and the others of her generation to grow up. It rang True.

This generation was raised on a technology that blurs the lines between fantasy and reality, between dream and dreamer. They grew up without the rigid belief systems that defined the generations before them. Magic is more than just an idle imagining to them, and they don’t struggle to choose between It and Reason. Breaking the barriers of perception is no more of a challenge than a good video game.

Memory returns with every passing day, but I barely have time to catch my breath. We have so much work to do yet, so many projects to complete from all those years ago that are becoming no-time to us Now. Some wake up more swiftly than others. As my son said earlier this evening, how can it be a difficult choice? Though he hadn’t been more than thirteen or so when we “forgot” completely, like me, he never lost that longing for something more. He told me it’s the difference between being a Zombie, going through the motions of life for these last dozen or more years, and truly being Alive.

The world has shape and color and magic again, and we are Blessed.

It's all coming back to me Now!