I am asked to convey this message received from the Elohim Metatron on January 16th. Until a few days ago, I had had little or no contact from this messenger from the Central Sun for a number of years. In view of the rapidity with which the Ascension Process is currently unfolding on Gaia/Earth, this One feels that as many as possible should be made aware of the necessity for Haste in these Last Days. Change comes, and this is not the No Time to fall behind. I am publishing this in it’s entirety other than some slight editing of personal material.
Metatron: I greet you with effulgence and barely contained glee on this most memorable of days, It is as though I awaken from a long sleep in the Dimensions you inhabit, and I Am more than ready to live up to the appellation bestowed upon me by my beloved Merlin. Now, indeed, are we ready to send a storm of change hurtling about your physical Earth.
Existential Self—This is ‘the most basic part of the self-scheme or self-concept; the sense of being separate(emphasis on separate is mine, not author’s …GS ) and distinct from others and the awareness of the constancy of the self.
Helen Bee, 1992
Oh No! Not the Big D Again
If you have been in Ascension Process for a while, or involved in some of any number of Spiritual Communities and groups, you are aware that Death of various parts of what we consider Self is inevitable. Ego is the big bad. Must eliminate that pesky thing, but what else, you may ask, has to go? Only things like Individuality, Autonomy, Personality, Rationality, and the biggest sticking point of alll—The Self.
After all, we are just emerging from the Decade of the Self.; Self-Esteem, Self-Control, Self-Involvement, Self-Help, Self-Growth, Self-Love, Self-Indulgence to name a few, and my all time favorite, Self-Care. While a part of me understands the necessity of this period of development, another part has cringed. All of this pandering to the God of Self has brought a great deal that needed attended to right to the surface of being, and it has pointed out glaringly just how divided and disconnected from Source those incarnated on Earth are. And how preoccupied with the Self they truly are, how distanced from the so-called Soul Missions so many of them profess to be on Earth to Fulfill. This year, heralded by many as the one in which the New Earth is thrown open to welcome her Ascended Children Home, will only be that if we can give up the False Idol of the Self.
The word from Source, the Ascended Masters, the Angels and the guides is that 2020 is the year that we all come together as One, as a Collective, as the Monadic Soul. Sounds good, doesn’t it? Very Spiritual and Profound. The ideal is just that, but the doing of same is somewhat more complicated.
I’m not certain how I am going to come off here, but instead of filling many paragraphs with flowery wordy vagaries about downloads, uploads, DNA light codes, Crystal body upgrades, etc., etc., I’m going to just speak frankly (I hope!). What we’re going to shoot for here is Ascension for Dummies. That other stuff is lovely, and often as not, the channeled words are as important for the Energies that accompany them as for the Words themselves. This is important though, from the point of view of how we get from point A to B and then C in this pursuit of joining together on Earth.
The Many as One
This is a Pipe-Dream, is it not? The notion of pulling together the billions of disparate and fractured Lifestreams on this planet, of getting them to strive together for the Good of All, is staggering. I’m not speaking to Everyone out there. There are Lightworkers among you who have laid aside the egos, the personality constructs, and so forth, and are joined in a golden network of Light and Energy that upholds this planet from sinking back into the Darkness. Instead, I would speak to the Billions on Earth, most of whom are just now even waking up to the possibility that they are More, that Gaia was/is/will be More, that a Path has been Blazed through the Shadows, and Light waits on the other side. While I could sugarcoat it with stock labels like attaining the Collective or Universal Consciousness, that doesn’t begin to describe the process that must be got through, or explain the sacrifices that need to be made.
Where to begin? As many are aware, we are in the midst of a Cycle meant to reunite the Twin Flames, to Heal the Duality and Polarity, part of the schism suffered as a consequence of plunging into the energies of a Descending Earth all those Aeons ago as Time is counted. It might be said that this is Going, but not that it is Going well. For most of these Couples (many are not couples from an immediate perspective, and some are not even acquainted with one another) the Process, much like Ascension Itself, proceeds to a certain point, and then comes to a dead halt. Many among the 144,000 managed the Left/Right Polarity reconciliation, effectively creating Two Beings (Still!) with neither a decidedly Masculine or Feminine orientation. While this is a very important and significant accomplishment, it is only a beginning, Phase One so to speak. What slows them down at this point, or very often stops them completely? Very simply, giving up what has been seen as Self. Once the joining of the lower subtle levels begins—Mental, Emotional and Etheric—we begin to encounter problems. Few, it seems, want to share their deepest secret thoughts and feelings with another. Most of those on Earth live behind a carefully constructed facade, filtering everything that arises in them even from those they hold dearest, perhaps even more so in many cases. It is one thing to expose your naked body to the beloved, but quite another to reveal the naked soul. On the Path to Ascension, we needs must give up the idea of secrecy and evasion, be willing to share all that we are, no matter what light we fear it will be perceived in.
Absolute Trust! Complete sharing of all that One is. Terrifying—at least that seems to be the consensus. And the next stage, the one that only a very few have managed to reach and complete, is the joining on the Physical level. This is not Spiritual Sex people. In fact, sexuality is no more than one of a myriad tangled webs encountered on this level. To experience what another person Feels through the body, everything from myopia to exhaustion to disorders, some as mild as a headache, others as serious as Cancer, is deeply disturbing at first. What would you Share with this, your most significant, of Others? You perhaps See the quandary. What sacrifice of your own health, comfort and well-being would you surrender in order to merge with another, to Create One out of Two?
Service and Sacrifice
It is possible to have attained the first major milestone on their Path to Ascension as an individual/personal undertaking. It takes enormous effort for most, and is a profound accomplishment. However, once that giant step is taken, the Fun really begins. Now we will see how you function as part of a group endeavor, as members of a cooperative unit. During the 1990s, when many of the Patterns for the Ascension Wave we see unfolding now were being created, the inability to work together as a cohesive whole, without Self-Interest interfering was, in more instances than one, the stumbling block encountered by the early Pentam (Forerunners) members. Since in essence, all of us who are here to assist in this enterprise, are Soul Groups whose ultimate Healing requires the release of the individuated, partitioned consciousness, this is of utmost importance.
The great reluctance that ones in both physical and pseudo-physical incarnation have in regard to surrendering their Autonomy, of putting the Group, or even those incarnating other aspects of the same Lifestream, before their own Individual purposes, remains a profound problem. Even among those who know Better, Selfishness and Personality still run rampant. How often do we encounter, when hearing from or about those on the path, is the need to isolate, to withdraw from the world, on one hand, or feeling ostracized and isolated by same? So often, instead of growing closer, people in Ascension process seem to use it for the opposite of dropping the barriers and sharing themselves. Words like abuse, narcissism and trauma are bandied about like badges of accomplishment. Never mind that what we accuse others of, is actually, more often than not, our own secret vice and guilt. Negative labels do not serve ourselves or our Community, or indeed, our Greater Self. Accusations, victim mentality and blame are counter to healing or growth.
The individuality and preoccupation, the self-interest I am speaking of, is the same sticking point that we repeatedly run into with the Twin Flame re-union. This then, is the crux of the work which must be done during the course of the year to come. Reconciliation of these twin flames where possible, and Connection of these Soul Groups at subtle levels that will make it possible to Transcend Personality and work together for the Whole.
It is possible for everyone in an undertaking to be Impeccable within their own sphere, each according to their own predilections, and still not achieve the Objective. And the fact that most who would declare themselves Lightworkers on the Path of Ascension remain a disparate group of Individuals rather than the integrated and unified Group that was meant to be, makes it unlikely that the objective of a Fifth Dimensional World can be achieved unless a New Paradigm is put into place. Individuality is what will keep this world on the Brink of Ascension, but unable to plunge. It is not only Ego. If it were, we could have been already done with this. It is a myriad little things that keep ones on Earth apart, from personality to emotion, from overblown rationality to the complete lack of same.
Most ones incarnated on Earth are parts of what you would see as Soul Groups, not just a Twin Flame couple, but dozens or even hundreds of other beings. It is a Catch 22, of course. In order to fully Ascend, to escape the bonds and boundaries of physical being and Assemble the New Earth, the Fifth Dimensional World in its Totality, you must have released the Self to the arms of the waiting Earth. Just as you discarded the Ego and so much else that was once part of who you thought you were along the way, you must Sacrifice Self as part of this amazing undertaking. And it is amazing, for in trade you become So Much More than you ever can be alone.
In order to complete the next phase of Ascension process, ones must be willing to not just entertain the notion or ideal of Unity, but to Live it. Self-Sacrifice and Service must become second nature. We are Better Together!
Today, December 21st, 2019, is a Magical and long awaited day. It is the Janua Coeli, the Winter Ascension Gate in the Northern Hemisphere and the Summer Gate of Descent in the South. Both are Mystic Initiations if taken. Neither Gate has been utilized by those in human incarnation since 1999.
This year is a Blessing indeed, for more than 400,000 Lightworkers will have passed through these Gates by the end of December 22nd.
I know that I have been absent from this blog for some Time, but much has occurred in the last quarter of this year, and I simply have not had the Time to attend to it. I hope to rectify this 2020.
Part of me feels as though I should be apologizing for my long-ish absence from this Blog, but without making any excuses or apologies, I can honestly say that Life has swept over me like a Tidal Wave these past couple of months. A Tsunami of Realization, of Awareness and Memory, of something resembling a Continuity that I wasn’t aware of having lost for nearly two decades. Is That all?
You’ve got to admit, sounds like some Heavy Stuff, and indeed it has been. I have been in a daze of mystified amazement during which I repeatedly muttered or exclaimed “I’ve had Amnesia” like some exaggerating soap opera actor. Mostly to myself, mind you, and those few who have at least an inkling of what I’m talking about. I’m not exaggerating, though, and the depth and breadth of the Memory that had eluded me for all these years, is staggering.
And as it unfolds, it wasn’t only myself who underwent this Memory Wipe, but an entire group of people at various stages of Ascension Process and Awakening. It appears that it occurred to one extent or the other in the several score individuals that I/We worked with from 1988 to 1999― what I called the Pentam Pattern. I say We because three of our household of four are now aware of this occurring. The fourth, my daughter was relatively young at that juncture, so it is hard to really say, though she does seem to have regained memories, as have we all, the past few weeks.
If you’re wondering how this can be, I’m certain you’re not alone. While I had forgotten a great deal, I was sent into the New Millennium with a Mission to complete, a task that required me to maintain a thread of at least vague continuity, and connection to my Higher Self guidance. I was like a sleep walker I See now. I completed these tasks, served as an Empathic healer for twenty years, and kept my link to Spirit, with almost no clue of what I was missing. The years preceding this Break in our Reality, were spread over with a framework of remembering that mostly worked well as long as one didn’t look too close.
My son and I would joke about the fact that I seemed to have a rather large blank space during his early childhood. I thought he was being a dramatic kid at ten or eleven when he had to write a paper on his younger years, and he made me pull out the box of school memorabilia I’d saved because he couldn’t remember. For myself, I didn’t dwell, because the memories I did have were not very happy, and I was aware still of having done much clearing in pursuit of my Spiritual Path.
Did I wonder why my spiritual progress was so slow and never as much as I thought it should be? Vaguely, but it’s hard to miss what you don’t recall. A few months ago, I had the urge to bring out a box of old channeled material and notes I had hauled through numerous life changes and relocations. Never having much spare time, I didn’t get around to looking at much of it for awhile. However, as my connection to my Guidance, to Source, became stronger, particularly following the summer Solstice, I began to read through some of it. Most of it was from the late 80s and early 90s. So, though I was puzzled somewhat by the seeming depth of my understanding of many esoteric subjects, and the complexity of some of these concepts, I only thought how long ago it was and no wonder things had slipped my mind.
As I dug deeper though, it nagged at me more and more. I was, I knew, in the most Spiritually Awakened point of any past I still remembered. And something started to seem Missing― was wrong from any direction I looked at it. It all seemed to come to a head when I gave my Son, who was by this time going through an Awakening process of his own, a paper I had done on the Qaballah and another on the Sons of Belial many years ago. He returned them to me, scratching his head and asking if I was sure I’d written them.
Had I? It occurred to me that I didn’t remember writing them, and the concepts exceeded anything I could readily grasp at present. However, I was certain that the Qaballah paper was mine. The other… Maybe Larry, the children’s father and the man I had spent much of the last 30 years with. He was a Channel of the Ascended Masters when I met him. But no, this wasn’t his. He did however, have copies of work and research done by both of us through the 1990s, on Energy Patterns, Esoterica and the Ascended Master Heirarchy. Like me, he hadn’t thought about this material for years, and couldn’t remember the last time he’d read any of it.
Where Did It Go?
As one computer was replaced over the years by another, and the world moved from floppy disc, to cds, memory sticks and and tiny cards. I had moved often also, and I lost a good deal of the earlier work I’d done along the way. Larry is more technically minded of us anyway, so he had copied from one format to another along the way. He made me a copy of all these many files, and I began to read. Initially, I was wondering when we had stopped doing these fascinating things, and why? Then shock set in, as I read the Warrior’s Journal, My Notes From God and the Goddess,that I had kept almost daily from 1996 through the early months of the year 2000.
This happened shortly before the fall Equinox. My Son, who by this time admitted to having his first Teacher and guide in energy realms, and I had a job to do. My connection to Source was becoming stronger with each and every day, and suddenly it all came together. It was like a physical blow at first. The sudden realization that a decade or more of my life had just disappeared, and that my Awareness had been virtually asleep for most of the past twenty years was traumatic.
Who Are We?
Memory returns, or more accurately, Awareness. The day to day memories are neither important or significant, but the Drama of what we achieved as a group working in Heightened Awareness in Higher Dimensional Energy Realms during that dozen years―the arduous completion of training and initiation As Shamans and Seers―are.
We were called the Forerunners. Our group entered into physical incarnation between the 1940s and the 1980s. Our job was to prepare the Earth, her Grid and the Worlds associated with same for Ascension. We are lightworkers, pattern makers, healers and teachers, and Warriors of the unknown. Someone had to go first. We were and are the Pentam Pattern. Our purpose was to establish a pattern for the formation of a Fifth Dimensional World, then to heal the rift between the two extant Universes ones on Earth have experienced, the Binary, that of Duality and Polarity and the Fall into the Third (and briefly 2nd) Dimension―and the more stable but still far from perfect Trinary Universe, that of the Divine Masculine and Feminine, and their Binder, the Dreamer (Father, Mother and the Holy Ghost).
During those years, Lightworkers began to Awaken around the globe, but we were spread so very thin that the workload was more than some could shoulder. While there was light and joy, there was more of sadness, pain and seemingly endless suffering. Ascension process is still difficult (though growing ever easier as more join the Awakened), but it was tantamount to impossible in those days, and yet the impossible was what we were sent to accomplish. By 1999, we had went through five cycles, trying different configurations and ideas each time, but still fell short of the ideal, of the perfection of unfoldment that was desired. And we were exhausted. As I have said, some had already left the Path, unable to muster that internal resilience it required in spades. They were magnificent, and their service will not go unrewarded.
Those that remained in 1999 most likely would have willingly embarked on another cycle, but it was too much to ask. The Ascended Master whose charges we were and those of us who were responsible for the Pattern, decided that a rest was in order. We dispersed, and we forgot (some slower than others, but it happened to us all).
Why now! Because we slept through the time that two other generations were coming into their own. The great Awakening that started slowly in 2012 is gaining momentum. I can close my eyes and see the lights of new souls around the world joining in this miracle of enlightenment and uplifting. We, the Pentam Pattern are awakening, and finishing the preparation of that Fifth Dimensional World to greet these brave pioneers. I think perhaps my Granddaughter summed it up in a conversation recently. She said that this wake-up was happening Now because I had to wait for she and the others of her generation to grow up. It rang True.
This generation was raised on a technology that blurs the lines between fantasy and reality, between dream and dreamer. They grew up without the rigid belief systems that defined the generations before them. Magic is more than just an idle imagining to them, and they don’t struggle to choose between It and Reason. Breaking the barriers of perception is no more of a challenge than a good video game.
Memory returns with every passing day, but I barely have time to catch my breath. We have so much work to do yet, so many projects to complete from all those years ago that are becoming no-time to us Now. Some wake up more swiftly than others. As my son said earlier this evening, how can it be a difficult choice? Though he hadn’t been more than thirteen or so when we “forgot” completely, like me, he never lost that longing for something more. He told me it’s the difference between being a Zombie, going through the motions of life for these last dozen or more years, and truly being Alive.
The world has shape and color and magic again, and we are Blessed.
I was going to do a short info type post yesterday for the Equinox/Mabon/Alban Elfed (‘The Light of the Water’. The Wheel turns and the time of balance returns.) however, the day’s Business was too important and too all consuming to leave time for any such frivolous pastimes.
As has long been predicted, the Energy poured forth from the Cosmos that signaled the beginning of the initiatory rites that will reunite the Twin Flame couples of the 144,000. This is not some romantic fairy tale coming to fruition, or some reconciliation of tragic lovers (though in some cases these things may seem part of the experience). In a world still torn asunder by Polarity and Duality, it is a necessity if the Earth is ever to be healed and Ascend.
This is the fulfillment of a contract entered into by the LightWorkers from Venus when they accompanied the Ascended Master known as Sunat Kumara to earth some 8 million years ago. They endured the Fracturing of Souls (or Lifestreams, which is my preferred term. I will post about this and some of the other terminology used by myself and othes of this lineage when there is tme) which is the effect of entering into the Dimensional Grid around this planet. Part of the fracturing meant that the polarities of masculine and feminine were split. The time has come to heal that split. For the next Year and a Day, these determined souls will do the work involved in this Healing.
The 144,000 are not the only beings on earth at present who will participate in this great healing. Many of these other Lightworkers and Starseeds are in the same predicament when it comes to reconciling the duality that prevents full Ascension on the Earth Plane. Some of these are participating in this ordained healing, and many others will join them in the months and year to come.
The Fall of the Patriarchy
Before this event could take place, it was necessary that the world had progressed sufficiently out of the Piscean patriarchal cycle into the Aquarian Age, and its emerging matriarchal template, for this to become a possibility. The Tower of Masculine hubris and supposed superiority must be knocked down, and the Divine Feminine reawakened. The reconciliation of the two polarities didn’t even exist as a possibility before this.
It will be a difficult task still. The genders do not trust one another, and the amount of healing that regaining that trust will require is immense. The twin flame reconciliation is the greatest expression of self-love that you can have in this world. This being is the Same Soul, but the other side of the coin. It is yin-yang, opposite and equal in every way.
This experience will have commonalities among the participants certainly, but the differences will be staggering also. A template for this reconciliation of Halves has been created, but the circumstances the individual Lightworkers find themselves in will differ vastly. Many of these Lightworkers are awakened to their higher selves at this point, or at least have an inkling. Others dont, and wont until the Healing has progressed sufficiently. It is not uncommon for one to be awake and the other not at all. Some are already in relationships, not necessarily romantic, with their twin. Others may know them, or of them, but have no contact, and more than a few have not even met. Most will in the course of this healing, but it is not a prerequisite for the Union. Each Soul has their own mission or work on this planet.
For many, the healing will be less difficult in the absence of this other person in their life. The drive to achieve this union may cause this to not feel so, but the difficulties of face to face balancing are not to be underestimated. Anything you direct at your twin flame, be it love or bitterness and angst, you are directing at yourself. There is a danger of falling into emotional and behavioral loops that are extremely difficult to pull out of.
In For the Long Haul
This healing is a commitment beyond what many have ever experienced or undertaken in their lives. So extraordinarily Personal, and yet at the same time seeming to be not. You are literally taking on an immense burden of what most likely will at times feel like someone else’s Bullshit. According to how far apart the two soul halves have drifted, how different their experiences, their Karma, in this lifetime and others, there will be large to massive amounts of mutual clearing and balancing to do.
This process has started. If you are one of these 144,000 (288,000) + people, you don’t have to do anything. It will begin to happen. How well you handle it, the amount of patience and grace you are able to muster—that is on you. Initially, it will be a lot of past life stuff. It will be confusing and often emotional, and there is no use even trying to sort it out. Just let it flow. As the healing progresses, you will effectively reach into the multi-dimensional Time Line and begin reclaiming the energy of supposed Past Lives and incorporating that consciousness into your Now.
Next will most likely begin an intense focus on healing both emotional and physical patterns acquired in this lifetime. You can look for strange seemingly senseless emotional responses, physical symptoms that don’t make any sense and may or may not appear largely on one side of your body (right for masculine and left for feminine). According to how sensitive you are, you may have the feeling of being larger or smaller on one side also. You will have thoughts and ideas that seem out of character, and impulses that don’t fit into any familiar pattern.
This Clearing Process may go on for a long time, and also come and go in intensity. At some point you will probably start to question whether anything you feel originates with you.
Then comes the reconciliation of the subtle body aspects. You are already One in in the Causal Body, but to accomplish this healing the Etheric Template, Astral, Mental, Emotional and Etheric Bodies must be reconnected. You will more than likely receive assistance from your Higher Self, Guides or Teachers in this process. If in doubt at this point, call on Kwan Yin or Sunat Kumara, and assistance will be provided. This process is likely to cause great internal confusion. Relax and allow it to occur.
The next step entails joining or Sealing the Seven principle Chakras. This will necessitate further clearing and balancing of the Energy Body. There are numerous subtle processes that will accompany these various steps and processes, but ultimately if Balance can be reached, you and your Twin fame will become effectively One Being and have access to the Merkaba or Light Body.
I wish all those who are undertaking the fulfillment of this sacred Union well. I will be glad to answer any questions about this process, or Ascension itself, that I can.