The Birth of I AM

Existential Self—This is ‘the most basic part of the self-scheme or self-concept; the sense of being separate (emphasis on separate is mine, not author’s …GS ) and distinct from others and the awareness of the constancy of the self.

 Helen Bee, 1992

Oh No! Not the Big D Again

If you have been in Ascension Process for a while, or involved in some of any number of Spiritual Communities and groups, you are aware that Death of various parts of what we consider Self is inevitable. Ego is the big bad. Must eliminate that pesky thing, but what else, you may ask, has to go? Only things like Individuality, Autonomy, Personality, Rationality, and the biggest sticking point of alll—The Self.

After all, we are just emerging from the Decade of the Self.; Self-Esteem, Self-Control, Self-Involvement, Self-Help, Self-Growth, Self-Love, Self-Indulgence to name a few, and my all time favorite, Self-Care. While a part of me understands the necessity of this period of development, another part has cringed. All of this pandering to the God of Self has brought a great deal that needed attended to right to the surface of being, and it has pointed out glaringly just how divided and disconnected from Source those incarnated on Earth are. And how preoccupied with the Self they truly are, how distanced from the so-called Soul Missions so many of them profess to be on Earth to Fulfill. This year, heralded by many as the one in which the New Earth is thrown open to welcome her Ascended Children Home, will only be that if we can give up the False Idol of the Self.

The word from Source, the Ascended Masters, the Angels and the guides is that 2020 is the year that we all come together as One, as a Collective, as the Monadic Soul. Sounds good, doesn’t it? Very Spiritual and Profound. The ideal is just that, but the doing of same is somewhat more complicated.

I’m not certain how I am going to come off here, but instead of filling many paragraphs with flowery wordy vagaries about downloads, uploads, DNA light codes, Crystal body upgrades, etc., etc., I’m going to just speak frankly (I hope!). What we’re going to shoot for here is Ascension for Dummies. That other stuff is lovely, and often as not, the channeled words are as important for the Energies that accompany them as for the Words themselves. This is important though, from the point of view of how we get from point A to B and then C in this pursuit of joining together on Earth.

The Many as One

This is a Pipe-Dream, is it not? The notion of pulling together the billions of disparate and fractured Lifestreams on this planet, of getting them to strive together for the Good of All, is staggering. I’m not speaking to Everyone out there. There are Lightworkers among you who have laid aside the egos, the personality constructs, and so forth, and are joined in a golden network of Light and Energy that upholds this planet from sinking back into the Darkness. Instead, I would speak to the Billions on Earth, most of whom are just now even waking up to the possibility that they are More, that Gaia was/is/will be More, that a Path has been Blazed through the Shadows, and Light waits on the other side. While I could sugarcoat it with stock labels like attaining the Collective or Universal Consciousness, that doesn’t begin to describe the process that must be got through, or explain the sacrifices that need to be made.

Where to begin? As many are aware, we are in the midst of a Cycle meant to reunite the Twin Flames, to Heal the Duality and Polarity, part of the schism suffered as a consequence of plunging into the energies of a Descending Earth all those Aeons ago as Time is counted. It might be said that this is Going, but not that it is Going well. For most of these Couples (many are not couples from an immediate perspective, and some are not even acquainted with one another) the Process, much like Ascension Itself, proceeds to a certain point, and then comes to a dead halt. Many among the 144,000 managed the Left/Right Polarity reconciliation, effectively creating Two Beings (Still!) with neither a decidedly Masculine or Feminine orientation. While this is a very important and significant accomplishment, it is only a beginning, Phase One so to speak. What slows them down at this point, or very often stops them completely? Very simply, giving up what has been seen as Self. Once the joining of the lower subtle levels begins—Mental, Emotional and Etheric—we begin to encounter problems. Few, it seems, want to share their deepest secret thoughts and feelings with another. Most of those on Earth live behind a carefully constructed facade, filtering everything that arises in them even from those they hold dearest, perhaps even more so in many cases. It is one thing to expose your naked body to the beloved, but quite another to reveal the naked soul. On the Path to Ascension, we needs must give up the idea of secrecy and evasion, be willing to share all that we are, no matter what light we fear it will be perceived in.

Absolute Trust! Complete sharing of all that One is. Terrifying—at least that seems to be the consensus. And the next stage, the one that only a very few have managed to reach and complete, is the joining on the Physical level. This is not Spiritual Sex people. In fact, sexuality is no more than one of a myriad tangled webs encountered on this level. To experience what another person Feels through the body, everything from myopia to exhaustion to disorders, some as mild as a headache, others as serious as Cancer, is deeply disturbing at first. What would you Share with this, your most significant, of Others? You perhaps See the quandary. What sacrifice of your own health, comfort and well-being would you surrender in order to merge with another, to Create One out of Two?

Service and Sacrifice

It is possible to have attained the first major milestone on their Path to Ascension as an individual/personal undertaking. It takes enormous effort for most, and is a profound accomplishment. However, once that giant step is taken, the Fun really begins. Now we will see how you function as part of a group endeavor, as members of a cooperative unit. During the 1990s, when many of the Patterns for the Ascension Wave we see unfolding now were being created, the inability to work together as a cohesive whole, without Self-Interest interfering was, in more instances than one, the stumbling block encountered by the early Pentam (Forerunners) members. Since in essence, all of us who are here to assist in this enterprise, are Soul Groups whose ultimate Healing requires the release of the individuated, partitioned consciousness, this is of utmost importance.

The great reluctance that ones in both physical and pseudo-physical incarnation have in regard to surrendering their Autonomy, of putting the Group, or even those incarnating other aspects of the same Lifestream, before their own Individual purposes, remains a profound problem. Even among those who know Better, Selfishness and Personality still run rampant. How often do we encounter, when hearing from or about those on the path, is the need to isolate, to withdraw from the world, on one hand, or feeling ostracized and isolated by same? So often, instead of growing closer, people in Ascension process seem to use it for the opposite of dropping the barriers and sharing themselves. Words like abuse, narcissism and trauma are bandied about like badges of accomplishment. Never mind that what we accuse others of, is actually, more often than not, our own secret vice and guilt. Negative labels do not serve ourselves or our Community, or indeed, our Greater Self. Accusations, victim mentality and blame are counter to healing or growth.

The individuality and preoccupation, the self-interest I am speaking of, is the same sticking point that we repeatedly run into with the Twin Flame re-union. This then, is the crux of the work which must be done during the course of the year to come. Reconciliation of these twin flames where possible, and Connection of these Soul Groups at subtle levels that will make it possible to Transcend Personality and work together for the Whole.

It is possible for everyone in an undertaking to be Impeccable within their own sphere, each according to their own predilections, and still not achieve the Objective. And the fact that most who would declare themselves Lightworkers on the Path of Ascension remain a disparate group of Individuals rather than the integrated and unified Group that was meant to be, makes it unlikely that the objective of a Fifth Dimensional World can be achieved unless a New Paradigm is put into place. Individuality is what will keep this world on the Brink of Ascension, but unable to plunge. It is not only Ego. If it were, we could have been already done with this. It is a myriad little things that keep ones on Earth apart, from personality to emotion, from overblown rationality to the complete lack of same.

Most ones incarnated on Earth are parts of what you would see as Soul Groups, not just a Twin Flame couple, but dozens or even hundreds of other beings. It is a Catch 22, of course. In order to fully Ascend, to escape the bonds and boundaries of physical being and Assemble the New Earth, the Fifth Dimensional World in its Totality, you must have released the Self to the arms of the waiting Earth. Just as you discarded the Ego and so much else that was once part of who you thought you were along the way, you must Sacrifice Self as part of this amazing undertaking. And it is amazing, for in trade you become So Much More than you ever can be alone.

In order to complete the next phase of Ascension process, ones must be willing to not just entertain the notion or ideal of Unity, but to Live it. Self-Sacrifice and Service must become second nature. We are Better Together!